Friday, December 01, 2006
ARGH! sleepless nights.
i cant sleep....
why why why...
its like 4 am and i'm still sitting infront of the comp....
lying on the bed counting isnt helping at all...
is there too much on my mind?
if there is what is on my mind exactly???
i'm so damn bored..
msn i put away sleeping but..
i'm still here...
jowell just knocked off...
why can i sleep..........................................
this is getting kinda irritating...
anyways.. i d/l utorrent again..
d/l borat the movie and robin hood merry men in tights..
seriously i'm getting stoned by boredom.
boredom knocks hard.. REAL hard...
i'm typing in the dark...
sorry if i made any errors...
cause i cant really see anything and trusting on instincts to see where the buttons are..
whatamifeelinginsideofmenow?
lonelinessgriefsadnessoramijustbeingtooparanoidaboutcertainstuff?
idontknowwhatswithmethesefewdaysbutGodplshelpmegetpassthisperiod.
thisworldisfilledwithsomuchviolenceyethappinessstillpersists.
somuchdestructionyettherearestillsomewhopersevere.
amifeelingsolow?
whatamitroubledabout?
BGR?
idontknow
SCHOOL?
idontknoweither
CHURCH?
thatsthebiggestquestionmark.
ithinkicantsleepisbecauseicantbeartonotworryaboutmyfriendsandfamily.
i'veseenalotsincethestartofthisyearandthingsaren'tpretty.
i'veturnsaddistic.
jealousyisrisingatanalarmingratebuti'mstilltryingmybesttokeepitdown.
angerisburninginsideofme.
ismyfacademeltingaway..
canlifestillgoonthewayitis..
amirunningawayfromthetroublesiface..
amistillthepersoniknow..
amistillthepersonothersknowmeas..
amistillme.....
whoisme..
ME..
butthenagain...
memememememememe...
amithatselfish...
iguessiam...
howcanichange...
tellmesomeone...
tellme...
dontgivemebullocks...
tellmetruthfullywhatyouthinkaboutme..
tellmehowhaveioffendedyou..
tellmewhatamilike..
iwanttochange..
beforeicanchangetheworld..
i'vetochangemyself.
MANINTHEMIRROR-MJ.
11:50 AM
You're in myworld now!
.Zach.is.back.